Sunday 31st January

The day started with a big toddler nose bleed, cause unknown. Do we want to know, did Seren trip or was she pushed, it's a little Matthews' mystery. Then it was off to church, Seren and Alex go to infant Sunday school, and had made a tree which had involved lots of cutting, colouring and glueing. They proudly sat on the floor waiting for a chance to tell the congregation about the master piece; when Alex was asked what they had made and why, he just said the word 'because'. Really quite deep! The rest of the today was taken up with chores Alicia room now looks ready for her next visit home (not many sleeps now.) And afternoon tea of really yummy Victoria sandwich with buttercream and jam filling, topped with pink icing and pink hearts.

Saturday 30th January - Disco Fever

Last night was disco fever. Alex attended his second school disco this involved

1)A bath after school (Alex's decision)

2)Hair blow dried (we like the surfer look its cool !)

3)On entering the school reception being grabbed by the first year 1 girl that spots you (he is very popular it might be because he is really into pollypocket)

4)Inhaler twice (lots of dancing and its hot hot hot)

5)Fun Fun Fun

Take a look at some pics

Friday 29th January

This morning before nine i lost my temper with the bank. My card was refused and i had a meltdown rang my bank to be told they could not help because long ago i had signed up for on-line banking. I asked to speak to her manager and in a very controlled way told her that 'British Banks are as illegal an operation as Brothels ' typing this i wonder did make any sense. Any way at this point sensing i was going to blow she decided to help me she looked into my account details and asked if i had recieved a new card at that point the penny dropped and i had to say 'Sorry'. This got me thinking about the word sorry i use it a lot my hubby rarely uses it prehaps a couple of times a year. This started me thinking what things am i really sorry about for today i have limited it to five and will not utter the word all day (this is going to be hard)

1) My sister-in-law Elizabeth i am sad that before you died i did not have the chance to say how much i loved you (sorry)
2)To all my children i am sad that sometimes in the rush of days and weeks we do not get nearly enough slow time (sorry)
3) To my body i am sad that i have spent too much time worrying about my weight on a daily basis.You are very wonderful and you have very carefully nutured five babies into the world.Thankyou (sorry)
4)To my hair should you really be red are you better blonde (sorry)
5)To my husband for sometimes in temper saying things that i untrue and very mean (sorry)

Thats it for now must fly

Thursday 28th January

Today i left the house my friend Julia very kindly picked me up and took me to her house for lunch. Ruby and Seren had a lovely big play and general hung out like four years olds do, i just chatted with an adult outside of my own four walls it was lovely. And in the afternoon i had a very excited and proud Alicia on the phone with the results from her first term of Uni she had an A in accounts. I am very proud of Alicia and i love her very much and here are just five reasons why (lots more will follow)

1) Strong sense of self at 18 (proud)
2) At 16 Alicia lost her hair and was brave and confident (proud)
3) Kind (proud)
4) Wicked sense of fun (proud)
5) She can cook a mean lasagne (proud thats a good dish and she makes the cheese sauce herself)

Alicia if you do read this i am proud of you and love you lots. Being eighteen she is a good reader too so i am hopeful she will read this and know. I would like to add to my other children and my husband i am proud and love you all too but today is about Alicia she got an A.

Wednesday 27th January

Today i feel slightly better but i am having to be very careful do a bit and then take a break. Have discovered some good day time shows one that is about a house gift i am going to have to wean myself of this otherwise i will never go out. Alex is really struggling with his Asthma Cliff was up twice in the night giving him the inhaler and at one point tried to leave him in the lounge while he got something 'don't leave me i am frightened' he said. Word of my week will be slow

Sunday 24th January

I have not written for a few days as i have really hurt my back,very stupidly picking up a woolly hat on Friday morning. So my weekend has been really slow with Cliff cooking,cleaning and looking after the children. He has done a very good job kids are all in bed hair washed and ready for school, i have slept and just tried to rest. Fingers crossed the pain will go soon

Thursday 21st January

Sickness in the camp lots of tears. Jonny tried to make my day with a 10% discount on Summer clothes, but stop Elizabeth bring home a flyer from her friends mom who sells clothing. Lets take a look its only lapdancing clothes and clubwear don't think Alume Chine is ready for that this Summer.

Wednesday 20th January

Rain Rain very wet bridge, a mile walk to school lots of use of the inhaler oh we hate the damp. Wednesday is my day to help on the walking bus from our infant school to our junior school then back home for a fruit tea and toast. When i picked the children up Seren was feeling unwell so it was cuddles on the sofa and 'Horrid Henry' and a very early bedtime.

Tuesday 19th January

Today started very late. So the school rush was a rush with a mommy meltdown at roughly eight fourty five am apologies to any witnesses, big thanks to the blonde Angel who walked Elizabeth to school for me. Other parts of today include dead fish (sorry Alicia) and to end the day on a perfect note poohy smelly pjs. Inbetween i have enjoyed strong coffee and chocolate